Saturday, October 31, 2015

Last night was fun!


My candy corn leggings came in yesterday and I was super stoked to wear then to the MSU production of Rocky Horror Picture Show. Brooke played Columbia and did fantastic as usual! 

And since I basically only had carbs and fats left last night, I nibbled on Butterfingers during the show! 

Stay Strong Y'all!

Halloween = Candy Corn

Happy Halloween y'all! 

"The great thing about candy is that it can't be spoiled by the adult world. Candy is innocent. And all Halloween candy pales next to candy corn, if only because candy corn used to appear, like the Great Pumpkin, solely on Halloween."

So yeah, I love candy corn. 

My candy corn leggings didn't come in in  time for class today, do I'm rocking last year's skulls. 

But since I love candy corn so much, I'll rock the new leggings for the rest of winter anyway. And if they are in the mailbox when I get home, I might wear them to Rocky Horror tonight!

Regarding my love of candy corn, two Saturday's ago we got Cracker Barrel carry out and when I was paying I saw Hershey Candy Corn bars. Um, yes please! But I didn't buy one because I didn't have enough cash on hand to pay for food and candy. Next time, right? 

I was so excited today to go eat lunch at Cracker Barrel and get a candy bar!! We never go out to eat so this was going to be a huge treat! Smash some grub, enjoy a sweet treat, IIFYM style, of course. 

And they were out of bars. So sad. 

I can order them off Amazon.....

And I just might....

Speaking of Amazon, a couple of weeks ago Amazon offered Prime members free 4 month magazine subscriptions. I selected, among others, Vanity Fair because I've always thought it must be what the smart, fashionable cool kids read. And wow, I love it! In only halfway through this month's issue and I feel exponentially more sophisticated. Two thumbs up to VF and another notch in the belt of Amazon Prime. (PS, I heard about this deal from

Nothing overly exciting or profound to write about today, but I can't wait to start November off with a couple of new goals. One is to blog every day, and the other i will explain tomorrow. 

Stay strong y'all!

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Chicken and waffles, it's what's for breakfast.


Happy Birthday Mom!

This was actually yesterday's breakfast and it was pretty darn tasty! 

I started with two Eggo Nutragrain Low Fat Waffles, 3 oz of my crockpot chicken and a Fuji Apple. 

I cut up the apple and put it in my Tupperware Breakfast Maker along with some Tupperware Cinnamon Vanilla Seasoning. I microwaved it for two minutes. 

I heated up the waffles in the oven and warmed up the chicken in the microwave and voila!

Yum yum in my tum tum!

Training newsflash!
Pants are stupid! Why oh why did I think pants were a good idea today? As soon as the WOD started, all I could think of was how I wish I wasn't wearing pants. 

Don't get me wrong, these are awesome workout leggings. I just don't want to actually workout in them. 

What's the point?

9:28 AM

I started this blog as a way to express all the random thoughts that popped into my head. It was an outlet to assure myself (and others) that we weren't alone in being weirdos. 

During training for the big meets I did this year, it helped me stay grounded and focused. 

And then when I stepped back from competing, I was just done with everything. I felt like this blog had to be something amazing and epic, and I was not willing to put in the energy to be amazing or epic. So I quit writing because I felt like if it didn't have all the quality points of a great blog post, then why bother? 

What's the point? 

The point is it saves my sanity to word vomit sometimes!

I'm here today to tell you I'm committing to writing every day for the month of November. It may awesome. It may be sporadic and barely edited. It may be boring as hell. But I'm writing. Err day. 

By the end of the year, I plan on also having all of this transferred over to a real website! I obtained the domain a long time ago, but just didn't have the energy to move it all. 

I'm looking forward to a few big things coming up soon. The first is MSU's production of The Rocky Horror Picture Show Halloween night! My daughter is going to play Columbia. 

Next week I have two speaking engagements that I'm really excited about! The first is speaking at MSU about owning a fitness related business and then later in the week I'll be at Flex Fitness talking nutrition. Come see me if you are nearby!

11:39 AM
Huh. What I thought were shadows on the carpeted staircase was actually dirt. I'm great with organizing, terrible with cleaning. I need a housekeeper. 

Stay strong y'all!

Monday, October 12, 2015

Fearing Grace

I'm crying and having a mild anxiety attack. I'm begging to not do this.  I'm delaying and stalling as much as possible.

What is "this"?

It's Grace.

A CrossFit workout that puts fear in my heart.

No, that's not hyperbole above. I'm not exaggerating for theatrical effect. That is truly how I react when I am supposed to complete the wod Grace.

Get a 95# bar loaded up.
Pick it up.
Put it overhead.
Put it down.
Repeat 29 more times.

No big deal, right? I can clean and jerk a lot more than that. I've been CrossFitting for 7-8 years now. I own a box for goodness sake! J can do men's RX in 2:01. Camille Leblanc-Bazinet, 2014 CrossFit Games champ, can do it in 1:40.

Me, I don't wanna do it.

Everybody knows I hate wall balls and hate Karen (150 wall balls for time). I bitch about Karen every time I have to do that wod. I generally cry a lot during Karen (I'm a crier, it's a fault).

But Grace is different. I don't hate Grace, I fear Grace.

I've acknowledged this fear for a long time and even made a plan to conquer it once before. When I was setting my 2014 goals, "Grace sub-3" was one of them, meaning I would complete all 30 clean and jerks in under three minutes. And you know how many times I completed Grace in 2014? Maybe twice. Maybe.

I know I did it at the Super City CrossFit Competition in September of that year as part of a team wod. And I'm pretty sure my time was sub-4. But no one really looked at the clock so I'm not 100% sure. All I remember was crying and cursing as it happened.

Then in or around November, J suggested I should try it again since it was a 2014 goal....and 2014 was almost over. I whined. I cried. I stalled. I finally started it.

I did 3 reps and had a melt down. I quit.

Why?! Why?! Why is that wod so hard for me?

I can power clean 95# easy.

I can jerk 95# easy.

And 30 really isn't that many if you break it into sets.

But for whatever reason, that wod is my Achilles Heel. Want me to freak out? Program Grace. Want to watch me cry and hyperventilate? Program Grace.

Do you want to know how many times I've completed Grace since September of 2014? Zero.

Flash forward to last week. I sat down on Sunday and wrote out my weekly goals. Accumulate 50 minutes of stretching. Drink a gallon of water every day. Etc.

Then (for some dumb reason) I decided it was time to get over this ridiculous fear. One of my goals for last week was to do Grace. No pressure for time, just do it. And maybe, just maybe, finish off that 2014 goal by the end of 2015.

And guess what?!




I didn't do it.

Yup. I wimped out.

I am a HUGE believer in weekly goals and meet 90-95% of my weekly goals. If it goes on the goal sheet, it happens.

Except Grace.

But karma has a way of biting you on the ass and Grace showed up in today's programming. I really thought about not doing it and of coming up with an excuse that would keep me from having to face my fear. I am an excellent cherry picker when it comes to Grace.

When it came time to wod, I loaded up my barbell. And then I pouted. I played with the radio. I got my gum. I teared up. I went to the bathroom. I put on my lifting belt. I tied my shoe. I changed the song on the radio. And then I finally turned on the clock. And I completed Grace.

I finished and looked at the clock and I HAD COMPLETED A SUB-3 GRACE!!!

Bwahahahahah! Yeah, right! This is my real life, not Miracle on Ice!

I actually teared up (again) when I looked at the clock, because I was much slower than I should have been. I pouted and felt sorry for myself for a long time this afternoon. A few hours removed though, I'm gaining some perspective and am happy I did it. I now have a recent baseline score and I didn't die. So some fear conquered there. No promises on if I'll do it again in 2015 though.

Every time you or I face a fear in CrossFit or life, we can hide or we can stand up to the challenge. Sometimes our fears are irrational (A silly workout) and sometimes they are founded in a very real and logical place (a cancer diagnosis in a family member). It takes courage to acknowledge our fear and walk toward it and through it. That's the beauty of CrossFit. Every thing in the gym translates to real life. Not just the movements like the squat and deadlift, but the mental part of the workouts as well.

When you are in the middle of a brutal workout and want to quit, but don't, that mental toughness will translate to any number of situations at work and home. When you finish a workout that you honestly didn't think you could, you will look back on it in tough times and think, "If I can make it through that wod, I can make it through this."

 As for me, I'm going to take some artistic license and change the capitalization in the Hemingway quote to

Courage is Grace under pressure.

What workout or movement do you fear and avoid?

Stay strong y'all!

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