Lately I've been keeping a very simplistic "mood journal." It's just a note in my phone where each day I make a note of how I feel, what my mood is, whether I'm stressed or happy, whether I'm hangry or anxious or excited. You get the idea.
As a math person, I feel that everything has a pattern and if you can detect the pattern, you have a huge amount of power. As a female, my pattern is probably directly related to my hormonal state, but so far I've not seen it. Most of my notes look like this
6/22 happy, but stressed
6/23 I hate people (lol, not you dear reader, just random people in the world that are idiots)
6/24 hungry and I hate everything (still not you, just the people that stand too close to me at the store or take forever to make a right turn)
6/26 everything is good, feel on top of things
**I made these days up so please don't go back and try to see if you interacted with me that day! haha!**
I've not neglected my "Yay Me" journal, it's still going on as well, but this little journal will hopefully allow me to see what my patterns are and see if I can break those patterns to become a more relaxed, less anxious person.
Now here is the problem I've encountered. I just started reading (finally!) "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne. And these passages stood out to me.
Our job as humans is to hold on to the thoughts of what we want, make it absolutely clear in our minds what we want, and from that we start to invoke one of the greatest laws in the Universe, the law of attraction. You become what you think about most, but you also attract what you think about most.
Your life right now is a reflection of your past thoughts. That includes all the great things, and all the things you consider not so great. Since you attract to you what you think about most, it is easy to see what your dominant thoughts have been on every subject of your life, because that is what you have experienced.
When you focus your thoughts on something you want, and you hold that focus, you are in the moment summoning what you want with the mightiest power in the Universe. The law of attraction doesn't compute "don't" or "not" or "no," or any other words of negation. As you speak words of negation, this is what the law of attraction is receiving.
"I don't want to spill something on this outfit." --"I want to spill something on this outfit and I want to spill more things."
"I don't want that person to be rude to me." -- "I want that person to be rude to me"
"Don't speak to me like that." -- "I want you to speak to me like that and I want other people to speak to me like that."
So. Do you see my conundrum? Be trying to ascertain a pattern to my distressing thoughts and moods, am I actually making them worse?
Is the fix then to PollyAnna all the time and pretend like everything is perfect? Fake it 'til you make it?
Hopefully as I keep reading "The Secret" those questions will be answered.
Stay strong y'all!
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